God is so good, beyond words really. Let me tell you something. Jesus will help and stay with you by darkness and not pushing you towards a decision or obstructing the view from the other. Behind the window, darkness and fear, on the other side and with you, goodness, unshaken by what’s behind or by any decision that lies ahead, he stands firm, hoping you will still choose him. He just kinda got to put the test for you to practice and strength yourself.